Adfam’s Family Voices Competition allows friends and family members who have lived through someone else’s substance use to express their thoughts and feelings in a creative and constructive way.
The winning entry is read out by a celebrity guest at Adfam's annual Festive Celebration.
Congratulations to this year's winner Hannah, for her untitled poem. You can read Hannah's entry below.
Untitled by Hannah
Remembering brings a sharp ache.
The beautiful person you were fading in drink.
Your glassy stare that made us feel invisible.
We tried to control, to cajole, to beg, the gap
Widening as we failed to understand your pain.
All drifting, gripping your hand to drink in your warmth, your smell, the ways you still tried to mother, to show your self.
We circled you in hospital, singing, holding, surrounding
You with the love you had given.
Pictures showing your life made
The nurses smile.
The pain and the love intertwined, indescribable.
But the longer we live without you the more we see
Your strength, the ways you tried to manage
And I wish I could speak to you now
To tell you that we are proud, that we love you
And that we understand how much you gave
Even as drink took so much.
My daughter will know you though you'll never meet.
She hears your phrases and sees your smile.
My beautiful mother always.
You can read the runner up entries here.