Hi Michelle,
I’m so sorry to read your story and to hear what you are having to deal with because of your partner’s drinking.
If you think it would help we have people you could talk with at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports the friends and families of addicts. If you contact us you could talk with one of our experienced and trained people which might help you to see a way ahead.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope this helps. Good luck.