Eja.. I fully understand the way you feel towards him, I am completely the same. I have to go to therapy every week because my mind just can’t handle the million thoughts that go through it every day, they are the same ones over and over again.. i love him I want to be with him but every second I think about what he has done and it tears me apart again. I want to make it work for the baby, also because our relationship was absolutely awesome and its not something I just want to give up on.. I’ve not told him my thoughts cos how do you tell someone that you wake up each day and think about leaving them. He’s says im his rock and he can’t do it without me. I think he’s getting there with his addiction as its been 7weeks and he says he’s had nothing, but i just have to believe him. Xx
