Oh Button Boy, I’m so sorry!!! How horrendous! As for feeling relief for a moment, I’ve been having the same thoughts about my son on several occasions these past few weeks because we too are at our wits end and the other night I too was convinced he’d died. It’s absolute torment and I veer from despising him to feeling so sorry for the pathetic creature he’s become from my lovely little boy. You don’t deserve this, you have done nothing wrong!!! It’s an impossible way to live isn’t it, sharing your home with someone like that, trying to track their every move. What is your GP like? I dragged my son into the doctors and the GP took one look at him and alerted the crisis team. You could even call them and say you are worried he’s going to kill himself then I think they will have to respond? I’m so sorry x
