Hi Mil1234,
I’m so sad to read your post. What you are going through is very tough for anyone, let alone someone of your age. Though very painful at first, you might find it does get easier to talk with people about how you are feeling, and that might become helpful to you.
You have been given some good advice on where to get help and, as well as those, you might try The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people like you who are having to deal with a family member’s addiction. We have experienced, specialist people who you could talk with if you contact us. This is a free service.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I’m really hoping that youwill be able to get some help.
All the very best and good luck.