Hi Cally,
I’m sorry to hear how badly your husband’s drug habit is affecting you. It must be very hard that you don’t feel that you have anyone who you can talk to about what is happening.
You aren’t alone as sadly, many people are in similar situations to yourself. I work for The Icarus Trust which is a charity set up to support people, like your, who are dealing with the impact of a family member’s addictions.
If you feel it would be useful, please contact us and you will be put in touch with one of our trained and experienced people who you could talk with. This might help you to make sense of things and find out what other help is available.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best.