Im doing good so far.. im having dreams every night using, and im feeling gutted when i wake up, like ive used.
My story basically, im 35.. been using for 8 year and its been like once every couple of week, sometimes once every 2 month. And sometimes once a week for a month.
But before xmas i went a bit bad. And i had to get help. My gf and mum are helping me.. tell your bf to search louise clarke on you tube and put cocaine/crack part 1. Shes great and helps with coke addiction.
Ive started reading books, which i never do. To take my mind off it, and im decoaratin. Russell brands got a book out on addiction which ive bought.
Theres loads of C A videos on you tube to watch people telling there stories.
And ive just downloaded an app called pocket rehab. Its were addict and ex talk to each other. Its great! And helps!
Going back to the xmas party.. he should be more bothered about his health and you. Instead of showing his face. A lot of people i know have commited suicide from coke. It sends you and the worse downers ever and suicidal thoughts. Ive got 4 kids and have these every time i use. Cried my eyes out alot im ashamed to admit.
But im sorting myself.