No I dont drink I used to. My problem has always been coke. I used to be an anxious person. Maybe with low self esteem. Coke gave me an edge made me think yeh I’m the man. Made me more confident ! But it’s all fake. It slowly started eating away at me. When you start todo it to feel normal then it’s a problem. I have hit real lows in terms of my private lives and have pulled it together long enough to get on my feet but then it all starts again. I think it feels exciting feels like an escape from the norms of life like you float away in this bubble for a while and forgot about all your issues. But when you start doing it everyday then it’s not fun anymore. It becomes a chore. A box to tick. I’ll do a gram which is about a p.4 in about 6 lines. Then smoke about 2/3 joints. Then I’m ok. Sometimes I’ll get 2. At £40 a g I’m spending on average £250 a week. When I sit down and think about it it’s mad! I don’t know what todo !!! I’m drowning
