Adam, id gone from once every couple of weeks to once a week, only friday.
But ive not told anyone this only my gf, i got some a few times in the day , soba. This never happend for me ever!.
So i new it was gettin worse. Basically you have to change your life around.
Ive started reading books. Some true stories on survival about a guy stuck on a boat that sinks and hes in the water with his crew. Basically its like what we go through and helps. Ive bought russell brands book on addiction. Theres tons of videos on CA meetings people talking about there stories, some are horrible what happens to some people , hence why they turn to drugs. Watch louise clarke on you tube crack cocaine part 1 2 3. Ive just bought her book.she knows shit loads.
When im coming down i have the worse depression and suicidal thoughts ever. My mate ran him self a bath to drown himself once because of it .
But you have to want to quit. Everything u do now. Change it. Delete your mates and dealers numbers. Delete facebook! Go for walks. Gym, make something. Do.summat.
Set yourself goals. Down load the app
Pocket rehab! Its brilliant all addicts on chat helping each other. And theres apart were u can click chat help if you are gonna use and it puts you through to some 1 in your position to talk and help you.