Thank you for sharing what it is like to be addicted to cocaine. My soulmate and husband who I was with for 19 years who is dad to my two children always smoked weed. 18 months ago he had a meltdown and said he hated me accusing me of cheating on him when I never had. He then left and demanded a divorce. It was only then I discovered he had been lying to me had £40,000 debt and had been doing coke for 5 years. During this time I had noticed a change in him, the lovely caring man was disappearing before my eyes and he would shout and scream at me and the children. After 4 months apart he begged to come back. I agreed provided he went to Open Road. He went 3 times and said he was cured.
Long story short we had 5 months of happiness then I went away for business and he changed again. During the World Cup he stayed out all night and one night told me he was out to get some MDMA and I couldn’t stop him. When he rolled in at 6am I gave him an ultimatum and said either me and kids or drugs and he said he didn’t love me and so was leaving. Worse he said he only came back the time before because he was coming down on coke.
We have been apart for 7 months. We are sorting the financial order of our divorce out. He moved two minutes up the road from me.
Please can you give me honest opinions on the following;
1. He wants to be friends and spend more time with me. I love the man he was but in my heart know he is gone forever. Should I say no and move on with my life? I will never love anyone else the way I loved him but he has hurt me and the kids way too much
2. He says he hasn’t done cocaine since he left. I suspect this is an utter lie as he is obsessed with money and pays me the minimum maintenance despite earning £70,000k a year. Is this utter bollocks? He is so convincing but I suspect it’s a lie
3. Is it possible all the nasty things he has said and done to me are because of the coke?
4. How much has his weed addiction since his teens got to do with this. I was always laid back about it but now wonder if that’s made him just as crazy
I hope someone can help me! All my friends just say forget the tosser. No-one understands how awful it is to live invasion of the body snatchers. ???? I loved my husband so much it really breaks my heart.