No problem, this forum helped me too a lot, as no matter how much I explained my bfs addiction to people they didnt understand, they get all judgemental too and to be fair i dont blame them as i was too before I had to deal with it first hand.
My boyfriend is slightly different – he went through a bad divorce, couldnt see his kids, got rinsed and his anxiety and mental health was suffering, so he started drinking self medicating with alcohol and tried cocaine – when i met him he was drinking 4 ish times a week and i noticed a potential habit – long story short hes noticed he has an issue now with drink/cocaine well substances that will ease his anxiety – hes stopped doing it but seems to relapse every 3 ish weeks which makes his anxiety and mental health awful, suicidal even, but he is getting help and wants to change, hes paying for addiction/anxiety counselling etc but it is all very draining I completely understand.
I am terrified to start my life with him, i want children/to get married – but my life is on hold until this issue is sorted.
I feel for you, so much. It must be so hard to let someone go that you love. Its like it would be easier if they were dead almost as they are here and alive but their old lovely amazing selves are dead and gone, its heartbreaking.
Its shocking what cocaine can do – please contact http://www.icarustrust.co.uk/ they will help you…
xx sending love to you, you will be happy again xx