I’m supporting him whilst he’s living away, at the minute he’s dedicated to getting clean, he’s attending n.a meetings most nights. Whilst I feel he’s working at getting better I will be with him.
If I feel that he’s using, and it will show, like if he will stop bothering with me and the kids so much, if he’s grumpy, I’ll get reports back from his mum etc. I’ll have to try to detach mentally.
If he ever moves on with anyone else I won’t ever have him back, or if I find out he’s ever cheated I won’t either. Not because I’m not excusing that the coke has warped his brain, but because when he’s been clean for periods he’s had chance to tell me time and time again and he goes to lengths to prove that he hasn’t or would never want to. So it would be for that reason that I’d end it.
I guess my life is just a waiting game at the minute, hoping he can pull himself out!