Hello,
I am sorry for all that is happening – it really is the worst. My boyfriend to has a cocaine addiction and it’s heart breaking. I can too relate to the resentment, he has relapsed within the last week and all I feel is resentment but can’t walk away as I love him so much.
You need to put yourself first and your baby, I know its hard I really do. Have you ever gone to an Al Anon meeting? I found it quite hard to go, but speaking to people will definitely help you. I went ages not talking to anyone about it and keeping it a secret and thinking I was mad, but once I spoke to people I have felt a sigh of relief and a weight lifted off my shoulders.
Please keep strong and put yourself first x