The worst bit is when you’re distraught and they are emotionless. Pre drugs my husband would shed a tear if I was ever upset and now he just looks almost through me.
I used to be the hardest person I know, even death didn’t effect me that much. Now I cry over a lot! If I try to say out loud some of the things I’ve been through I will cry and my husband will tell me to pull myself together or to get a grip! It doesn’t make a difference that you know the drugs are causing it, for some reason your brain still tells you they don’t care or must not love you.