Hi Danman, you’re really doing well, I can’t imagine how hard it is for you. Do you feel you need it just to feel normal or do you miss the rush? Please don’t give up! I wish my husband was trying like you are. Oh boy! He certainly does have a coke habit. 7 years of use, st one point spending approx £700 a month on it and drinking alcohol at the same time. He’s now £50,000 in debt but will pay that off when we divorce as I am paying him off. He claims he is no longer doing it. This is not true as his behaviour points otherwise. This Sunday he had my two boys (11 and 9) and they told me daddy went to bed for 3 hours whilst they were there. He also picked them up at 8:30 on Sunday looking like he hadn’t slept (he lives up the road so not driving them). He was late as he was “getting petrol”. No he wasn’t, he was getting a bag of weed so he could bring himself down, his sleeping confirms my suspicions. I don’t say anything any more as I am fed up of his bare faced lies, and we’re not together so it’s only my business if it affects the kids. They have phones and are old enough to come home down the road if they want to. They know he takes drugs as they found them hidden in a zippy toy in his car! It was skunk fortunately and not cocaine. My son took it from him and gave it to me! That was September last year. He loves them as best he can. I suspect he is in deeper than I realised. Danman, it seems my ex doesn’t want to give up, despite losing me, the boys, our family home. I think there is a midlife crisis in here somewhere as he plans on starting a record label. He’s been talking about it for years…..