Hi Bluebell
I am near Liverpool (I dont say calm down calm down and i dont go shopping in my PJ’s haha)
its a pity you are so far away as you say others get divorced and say move on etc but with the drugs in the mix it is a total mind game, i dont know what was truth and lies and although i know it is the drugs its still hurts me as he has just vanished and i wonder how anyone can do that, I am still thinking of the man from a few years ago and he would never do that (or would he?? as i never really knew him at all)
Yes its the dreams that hurt so much, the plans we made together just gone.
I feel he is in a win win situation, free to use, free to meet others, no memories etc and i am sat at home with all the memories etc (god i sound like a broken record :-))
I move next week so that hopefully will start to help but its my mind that is the problem, it just does not stop EVER!
I am starting Yoga next week as i have been reading up and people have said it saved them during divorce so will give that a shot.
I truly believe if had had more friends and family it would not be as hard and i would heal quicker, but what has happened and how i have dealt with it and still functioning i must be strong and it will only make me stronger.
What i dont want is this to change me, i dont want to become bitter, i dont want to change as i am a good person i have just been made to feel bad over the last few years.
Have you dont anything other than this forum that has helped? Any advice?
Sending hugs back.xx