I feel your pain mate . Ive been doing it 8 years every couple of week on fridays mainly alone in the house. Feeling depressed and suicidal.
Weekend in bed not doing out with the kids. Or i could of spent that money on the kids.
Least now you have addmited your an addict you can get help mate.
I havent had it since new year..
U need delete everyone out your phone to do with coke. You need stay in and stay awsy from everyone with coke. You need change your life around, routine. Ive started reading books and i never read.watch louise clarke on you tube crack cocaine part 123. Shes great and will give u great advice.
Its hard you will have dreams about using.and i cant say am clean now, because im not. Ive not had it for 4 week now. I feel so much better. My gf is ready to leave if i have it again.
Stay positive mate. Ignore negative thought, or that devil on your shoulder saying just get 1 , just have a little bit. You be ok..coz u know thats not true!
How often do u use mate?