You are doing so well Danman, I wish my ex would see what the coke has done to him. B8988 at least your husband loves you and says so.
I had an awful day yesterday. I finished preparing all the divorce papers and let him know he needed to sign them. He text back saying ‘nice one”.
When he came round we signed in silence until he said “this is sad isn’t it, the opposite of getting married”. I just looked at him. He then said “but it’s got to be done”. He then fussed about with a parcel that he wanted collected from mine as I am in today and when he left he kissed me on the cheek and gave me a big hug. I don’t know whether he was really upset or not, I don’t understand any of his behaviour any more. I later text to say I had never felt so awful after signing papers to which he replied. “No, not very nice at all.”
I really don’t know what that man values. It’s certainly not me and the kids! Must be his freedom to do what he likes when he likes with whoever he likes. I wish I could move away. He’s having his cake and eating it living up the road. I wish I could move away but I have a massive penalty if I cash in before the end of the fixed rate and also both my sons want to stay. It’s like I don’t get a say in anything. I wish he would go and move to London. He’s there for work today. Tuesday night is coke night after work with his techs chronnies. He’ll ride back in first thing in the morning and then expect contact with the kids. But of course, he isn’t doing coke according to him……such a liar! His bad moods and gaunt looks say otherwise. Don’t even know why I even care any more. Just st wish I didn’t have to see him. Maybe if he didn’t see us then he would realise what he has lost!
Sorry for rant! I just know 100% I wouldn’t be getting divorced if it wasn’t for the drugs! 🙁