Yes i have.. and long story short. I started 8 year ago. Taking it goin out for a while. But then i already become attached and we just stayed in at weekends. So i started having it in the house. I would never feel depressed and suicidal coming down off it for 1st few year. Then a couple of year ago. It made me depressed and suicidal. And i cried 1 morning, so i text my mum n told her everything and i asked for help. She was devastated but shes texting all the time and onto my gf as well lol. I started arguments without KNOWING so id go get some as an excuse. Your brain is so clever it craves it when u dont know. This is emotional relapse. Its hard. But ive learned when it comes.and you have treat it like an abusive ex. And tell my self its over.. do u really want to go back. These next months im dreading. But me and my gf have the kids bdays coming up and were going turkey. So shes staying with me till july at weekends and helping me decorate so i dont slip up.ive give her a lot of stick in the past. But shes stood by me through a lot.
