That is really positive B8988, at least he is trying, at least he is declaring love for you. He seems to really want to change. Although I bet like me you may be thinking, did he really? But that is how they make us paranoid and manipulate us all the time. They keep us in this circle of drama. I do think that they love us, deep down they do. But this coke, gosh it’s got a draw to it! I am petrified of the stuff and would never ever take it after hearing how it can get a hold of you. And for the record, back in the day I would party with the rest of them at raves, I’ve done MDMA, mushrooms, speed, weed, all in my teens and early 20’sbut I was single with no responsibilities and kept it for festivals and special occasions, so just a couple of times a year. So it’s not like I don’t know what those things do to you and would never touch them now. But I just don’t understand how coke manages to hook everyone so badly, it really is the devil’s work!
But I am hopeful for you B8988! He sounds like he really does care and doesn’t want to lose you. Mine is totally unpredictable! One minute hugs, the next telling me I’m useless and he doesn’t want to be with me. I do wonder what my life will be like this time next year…..x