Hey! Thank you so much for replying to me.
On here is fine, the publicity of our struggles way help someone else.
So I was prescribed codeine for pain related reasons after my daughter was born (second degree year and ongoing infections)
However I found taking these tablets made me feel able to cope, to be a mum, to not feel tired and down with the PND I was unknowingly experiencing.
I am currently on 5 30mg tablets a day which I’ve managed to reduce in 10 months.
However my doctor has said it’s time I took control of my tablets on a weekly basis as being controlled by someone else will make it harder to stay sober.
This has taken me aback as I have the tablets in my house and I am still finding the temptation to take enough to reach euphoria as a coping mechanism for motherhood, very overwhelming and have done so this past couple of days. Do you think it would be ‘safer’ to allow the doctors to take back that control? Or accept that I’ve had a relapse and start again with the weeks worth of tablets and try harder?