Babe, my number is [number removed]. WhatsApp me and we’ll sort a visit down to Essex for you. You need to read a book by Melody Beattie called Co dependent no more. It will help you understand why you feel the way you do and how to let go.
Babe, brace yourself, hard truth coming, and I still cry every time I think about it but you do reach a more pragmatic state, but, your lovely husband, the one you married, he’s gone. I’m so so sorry to say it babe, but your ex is using as much as mine did. My ex is not there. I have searched for him, I have tried everything but he has become something unrecognisable. Do something symbolic to come to terms with it.
We had a daughter but she died before her due date. She is buried in the church near my home. When I put flowers on her grave I pull one out of the bunch and put it in a different vase for my soulmate, the man I fell in love with. He is as dead as she is. I never got over her but I learned to live with it, I believe I will meet her one day. If I can learn to live with losing her I will learn to live with losing him. Life doesn’t seem fair, it doesn’t matter how much we care or love but when you learn to accept what it deals you and stop fighting against it you will get a sense of peace.
I am in an awful 80”s club in Brighton as we speak, life has a warped sense of humour, lol! Beautiful things can happen. And annoying as it sounds I can confidently tell you that it is true what they say, time is a healer xx