Hi Jennifer, I really feel for you as you can see in my previous posts I am in a similar situation to you with my son but he no longer lives with us. Fortunately I have my husband and we do have each other to share our pain and thoughts with and take our anger out on. I really think you need someone you can talk to and share with in addition to on here. Is there one friend who you think you can trust? Other than that you need to do something for yourself i.e. A hobby, meeting up with friends – just to take your mind of things for a short time. Have you got other family you can see? Like my son yours doesn’t seem to want to stop so I have realised it’s not much use offering support. Hope this helps and that you get some advice and support from an expert. You take care x