Yes this story is so familiar, especially when they look at you as if you are the one with the problem. It is selfish, and it is so emotionally draining and disempowering. Your only crime is you want the real person – the person with no alcohol in their blood streams, that’s who you fell in love with. Instead its like living with a Jekyll and Hyde – and you can never be absolutely sure who you are going to wake up with or is going to walk through the door.
Take comfort that all your emotions are real and justified, and you don’t need to make excuses for them. You are only human.
Do seek out support, simply knowing you are not alone is so valuable.