I am so grateful for your support, but so sad for you all too, because I know just how much this hurts. He has no idea what he is doing to us as a family, I know relapse is part of the road to recovery but we are exhausted. There are so many ups and downs. I couldn’t sleep last night worrying he was going to die.
My heart is ripped out. What I do know is we CANNOT be enablers. He has been improving overall since we stopped paying his debts. He had just paid the last of dealers off and now he owes another £700 for what!! He still owes his friends and us, will we ever see it? At least he seems remorseful, stupid and ready to try again. We will see. He is out paying his entire wages to someone he owes just now. I can wait until he is home and safe. We are so annoyed we stopped urine testing after 10 clean weeks. We won’t do that again. Wishing you all the very best. My heart hurts for us all, I feel like running away xx