Hi all I was a tad angry yesterday but today I am just sad, sad that here are so many of us having to deal with addiction although we are not the addicts.
We love our children unconditionally and actually feel their pain. It is like they get possessed by the drugs and they themselves are locked away inside their own bodies. I know that my son doesn’t want to steal from me and I know he doesn’t want to use but Cocaine gets such a hold on their bodies that they just can’t always fight it and then their actions are guided by the need of this drug.
What I do know is that, they have to really want to be clean, my son has told me it is different this time he really wants it and has joined CA.. this is the son that also stole from me at the weekend and swears blind it was not him…. I want to believe him with every ounce of my body but I know he is lieing, but if he stole it then he really isn’t trying to give up or maybe it was another old debt.. see I’m trying to make excuses for him already 🙁
So we carry on loving our children, not enabling them and praying that one day they will wake up with an inner strength that is stronger than Cocaine.
Take care you lovely people xx