Hi Jen,
So sorry to hear about your son and how his drink and drug problems are affecting your health. If you would like to talk with someone who would understand how you are feeling please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for people who are affected by the addictive behaviour of a friend or family member.
If you contact us we could put you in touch with one of our experienced trained people. May be talking with them would help you to feel supported.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
i hope you find this helpful. All the best.