Hi Harvey,
Thank you for sharing your story. I understand that you feel so devastated but I agree with Alan that it is good to hear that your son has taken positive steps to get help. That’s so important.
I was wondering if you would like some help for yourself?I work for The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for people going through what you are, having to deal with the impact of a family member or friend’s addiction. We have a team of people who are trained and very experienced. If you contact us we could put you in touch with one of them. They would listen to you and may be answer your questions and help you to make some sense of it all.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Hoping things turn out well for you and your son.