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I don’t think my husband is using now, that is the sad part. He’s been clean for 18 months I think, and not drinking for around 12 months. This is all about the past catching up on him and the fact that he’s had opportunities since he’s been clean to tell the truth about the financial trouble he is in and he has not done, I suspect because he knew I would leave.

I am not going to get peace whether I stay or go – but practically, sensibly, I’ve got to go now and hope he can sort himself out with the help of his family because I don’t think I’ve got the strength to help him as well as help myself.