Hi Laura,
So glad to read that things are improving for you and your husband and that he is now realising that he needs help.
You don’t sound at all selfish but very positive and strong. Its’s so hard what you are going through and if you felt you needed a bit of help for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for people who are dealing with the impact of a family member’s addiction. Talking with one of our experienced people might help you to find a way forward.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Hoping that this is useful. All the best to you.