I am aiming to focus on myself. I wish I was high maintenance. We have no children. I haven’t told family, I have told a few friends part of whats happening but it’s hard telling folk when they knew how happy we were. I’d rather keep most to myself. I don’t go out as I don’t want people he knows (coke friends and dodgy relatives) to see me. I feel embarrassed and humiliated. It’s hard to explain and hopefully over time my head will sort itself out.
