We are in a fix. My husbands friends and partners all do coke and most of his family do one drug or another and in one way or the other. It’s surprising how you don’t notice these things until they are on your own doorstep ruining your life. (My eyes are wide open nowadays and my ears are cocked) Like you say it’s on tap. I don’t drink much though, I’m not in the mood for it. I suppose it can either push you one way or the other. It is hard to get yourself out and about what with anxiety and the embarrassment of folk talking. I feel the same. I plan to do things but fail. I cannot go to the gym because folk know the both of us. (We live in a village) I’d love to go back though and I will do if he gets sent down. I am a strong person usually but this has messed me up big time. I have no one I can talk to properly so here helps an awful lot.
We will get through these bad times I’m sure.