Mine was fourteen years in when my husband chose to have cocaine problem. I fell for my husband straight away so even if it was six months in I’d still be as heartbroken as I am today.
We can only help when they admit they have an addiction and help themselves by putting their whole heart into getting off the drugs. But we are easily lied to and can be manipulated by those we love and care for. It’s on tap in our neck of the woods.
You are definitely not alone and here’s the place you can write what you feel and be understood.
Keep safe and well.