Hi buttonboy Paula loulou Danon and all you other mums of addicts I dont think any of us have had much to say on the forum for a while ? I have been tempted to post to see if anyone wanted to chat ? But sadly I have no motivating news for anyone as things with my son are not changing hes still not engaging hes withering away I haven’t seen him since last week .anyway I’m just going to stop for a min as I was just about to tell you all a lengthy tale about the terrible devastating life of my 30 yr old …11year of cocaine addiction son but actually I’m worn out with talking about it I met my lovely friend who has alsohelped with probs with my son “the only friend “!! Who I have ever really talked to who also loves my son I told her that I devastes me every day and every minute of my life I think about him before I eventually drift off I do need a sleep aid only from tesco!I wake during the night several times and when it’s time to get up I’m exhausted and turn my phone on then I wait ..and if theres no bad news hes got through another day or night that is how bad being the mum of an addict is I said to my friend tonight you could never imagine or wish the feelings we have on anyone and I will never be able to feel real happiness again…sorry and hope you dont mind my rant it’s all been building up and I hope you all know how it makes us feel xxx
