You need to look after yourself.
It’s not easy giving it up and it will be a long haul. But he really has to want to stop and not lie to you just to keep a roof over his head whilst you are providing his creature comforts. You work hard and you can’t risk your job constantly worrying about him. I’m the same I constantly worry at work, luckily I have an understanding boss and have worked there a long time.
Looking back now I have picked up my husband after his all night drinking and coke sessions. This is at the weekend though when I don’t work but it’s still the same I have run around after him.