[hox]

I’m doing my best to look after myself.

I now realise that it does disrupt the brain chemistry as he wouldn’t be like this it is totally out of character. I don’t know if he feels guilty taking cocaine as he doesn’t admit he has a problem. He has told me it is disgusting sniffing but he still does it and he rubs his gums.

He has to do what he wants to do even if the comedowns are outside the security of our home. I’m here if needed, but our home is not going to be used like a hotel as it has been for nine months.

So many of us in this situation.