Hi all haven’t been on for while too exhausted ! I decided to cut myself off emotionally from it all for my own sanity but that hasn’t lasted long had terrible week of him last week and spent the weekend in my pjs crying feeling sorry for myself and just wanting a normal life without these feeling of desperation it’s absolute shit ! I have stopped letting friends and family come to my house as never know if he’s gonna be here or be in a state when family are here it’s embarrassing I can’t even have my grandkids sleep over incase he’s on it or drunk not that he’d hurt them just that it wouldn’t be morally right I hate him but love him if anyone understands that feeling ?
