Hi
I’m so sorry that you are not able to talk about your feelings about your partner’s addiction. That must be so hard. I’m glad you’ve posted as this site has some great supportive people on it and, hopefully, it helps to know that you are not alone in how you are feeling.
You may like to talk to us at The Icarus Trust, the charity I work for as we offer support to people like you who are coping with a partner’s addiction. We have a team of trained and experienced people and if you contact us you would be put in touch with one of them. They would listen and offer support, maybe answer some of your questions and let you know what other help is available to you.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
It’s really important to talk so I hope that you can get some support.