Thanks hox for reply I have tried telling her that I need her to be there for me but doesn’t make a difference in her eyes she is absolutely fine my mother is very self centred and always has been , I’ve tried to distance myself from her but only managed a couple of days without caving and talking to her , think not speaking to her upsets me more than her I feel like I am responsible for her in some ways!! It’s a very strange relationship I’m the youngest of four sisters but it’s always been me and her before she met her husband we’ve been through a lot together and I’m the only one that has been there through all of it . I’m always worried if I do just leave her to it she might do something stupid and I don’t think I could cope with that , I’m happy to hear your sister is doing so well without the alcohol and hope it carries on for all of your sakes .