Hi Janette,
I’m sorry to read your post and can understand how difficult things are for you with your partner’s drug habit. It is a lonely place to be especially if you can’t talk to your family.
This site is great as you can speak to others on line who are in the same boat.
If you would like some more support for yourself, the charity I work for would be able to offer you help. We are called The Icarus Trust and, if you contact us, you could be assigned to one of our trained and experienced people. They would understand what you are dealing with and provide you with support as well as letting you know what other help there might be local to you.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that you get some support and things work out for you.