Thank you so much for your reply. Everything you say runs true with me and that is both sad and comforting! Since I have told my friends and family he feels embarrassed about seeing them. They are so caring and feel sorry for him rather than judge him but he thinks everyone judges him, he also has crippling social anxiety which isn’t helped by not being able to sedate himself. I didn’t realise for a good while that he was sedating himself to be able to turn up to family situations. I told his parents ages ago that there was a problem but they didn’t know the severity of it until he started going to meetings and admitted it himself. His siblings still do not know that it’s got to the point it has. I don’t feel it’s my place to tell them and he won’t until he has to.
It sounds really helpful that you’ve been able to go to a family support group. I haven’t found any but I might contact his service this week and ask specifically where I could go.
I’m pleased that your husband is home and agreeing that you can try again. I wish you both all the best.
Do you sometimes feel like you wonder at what point you will snap and not be able to deal with it anymore? T