Hi Bella
I’m sorry you are going through this. My husband is a recovering cocaine addict. Much of his use was hidden from me and whilst now he is in recovery our marriage hasn’t survived. I agree with DNAnon, it is likely to get much worse. You can’t really help, no matter how much you want to, it has to come from him and it sounds like he is a long way off getting better. Think about what is best for you and try to put yourself first. Unless he is committed to recovery it will be very hard for you.