Hi Bella,
I’m sorry to read your post and sad that you have no one in your family or a friend you can talk with.
These guys on this blog are right that your boyfriend has got to accept that he needs help himself before he will be able to get it. However, if you felt that you need a bit more help for yourself, maybe you would contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that offers support to people like yourself because we know how hard it is to live with another’s addiction. If you contact us I can put you in touch with one of our trained and experienced people who might be able to help you.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck to you.