Hi Mikey,
It looks like your post came through twice. To reiterate what I said above, thank you for reaching out to us. We are so sorry to hear about your issues and the fact you’ve been in hospital. Dealing with addiction and some of the other problems that it brings can be very tough.
You’ve done the right thing in reaching out on the forum and in attending CA. Please keep going to it as lots of people find it to be of great benefit. You can also ring the Narcotics Anonymous helpline between 10 am and midnight – 0300 999 1212.
If you ever feel desperate or are taking steps to end your life please contact the Samaritans on 116 123. They provide emotional support over the phone, and they don’t judge or tell you what to do. You can ring any time night or day and it’s a freephone.
It would also be a good idea to keep in regular contact your GP. It is their job to help when you are feeling as vulnerable as this and they can signpost you to other sources of support.
There are lots of threads on this forum about cocaine addiction, and relapsing. You may find it helpful to read through these.
Wishing you all the best from everyone at Adfam. You are not alone.
Best wishes,
Adfam Team