Hi Gil,
I’m really sorry that things are so tough for you, especially if you can’t talk about your husband’s addictions to your family and friends.
If you would like to talk with us at The Icarus Trust please get in touch. We are a charity that supports people going through what you are, coping with the addiction of a partner.
You can contact us on help@icarustrust.org or visit the website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck with everything.