Hey so I’ve been constantly in this cycle. And I’ve decided enough is enough!!
He’s vile and on a downward spiral out of control!
So I’m stepping back I’ve given all I can!
Hadn’t seen him since Wednesday I’ve had a few messages but they’re just vile nonsense!
Last night he was quiet then about 10pm tried to pick a row over message to engage in convo. I know he’s been on it just by the way his messages. He’s a different person jackal and Hyde!
4am I woke up to two missed calls me being me worried called him back he was just silent on the phone I tried talking to him for 8mins asking where he was was he ok. Nothing then he hung up.
Obvs mind does overtime called and called him till 5am.
So I called to the house called the bell then remembered I had spare keys. Found him in bed he was alive so I left.
Then vile messages have started again how dare i break in?!
It’s time I start thinking and caring about ME! He’s in a vicious cycle and he has no remorse, no apology he’s been like this constantly for over a week!
What I’m saying it’s super hard and I hear you! But if he’s not going to change then you can’t help guide your wasting your breath! Also it’s impacting your health anxiety and depression. No one should make you or I feel like that. It’s not healthy. Standing back last night I’ve noticed I’ve isolated myself because of the situation. And that’s not good either.
I’ve always lived life and crazy thrown anyone who stopped that to the side! BUT this person has a hold on my heart that no one has before and it’s hard. So I know how you feel but it’ll strip you of your self esteem.