Aright jenson.. im exactly same as you.. 8 years , every couple of week.. getting 1 g o a friday night.. leading to 2 or 3.
I have 3 kids as well. I have the biggest downers on it, and it sends me suicidal. And i cry my eyes out. I cant think of anything worse. I was even taking it in the house on my own.. anyways 2 years a go. I hit rock bottom. So got councilling sessions and i got it under control abit.
This new years eve was the last straw. I quit for 2 month.. then lapsed.. then 5 week clean then lapsed. Now am back clean again.
Ive studied and learned so much how to quit and it works.. to a certain degree and ill explain what i do.
My main and most peoples triggers to get coke.. is alcohol.. you have to quit that totally! Not even a sip..
Next.. delete every dealer out your phone book! Every mate and family member to do with coke. Delete facebook and all social media!.
Change everything you do, start some new hobbies.. i took up reading, and i do alot more with my kids.. i did anyway, but i do more now. I go metal.detecting now with them.
Just think how many hours you are off your head and downer for 6 -8 hours? And that time can go.to your kids.
Watch some louise clarke on you tube on crack cocaine part 123. Shes great and helps alot with addiction.
Listen to cocaine addiction recovery stories on you tube or castbox. They help a lot.
Theres an app called pocket rehab, download that. Its were addicts help each other.
Avoid places that will trigger coke, places you picked up, places you used.
Oh.. and avoid pubs, partys, bbqs, you might think thats no life. But it has be done.
My gf has stuck by me, god knows why. But i wont have it through the week or every week. But i do feel like wanting it.
I cant stand the stuff mate. Its horrible, the come downs are horrendous, but yet we still go back to.
And to do you best to quit you have to be 100 percent you want to.
Hope this helps. Just ask if u need out mate