He only used in the house whilst we were in bed. I had no idea. He’s never really been one for going out. So that’s odd right away.
Then the more arguments it caused he was going out drinking, staying out til 3 just so he could use coke.
He’s admitted it all now. Only because I’ve threatened to leave so much.
He’s up and down mentally a lot. Sometimes he’ll say he doesn’t want to be with me, if I fight with him over it. He will say he doesn’t know if he loves me. Then if I try to end it properly he’ll cry and beg me not to leave.
I don’t understand any of it. How can he be one way then suddenly another in a matter of days.
He’s even admitted that he thinks if he started over with someone new they wouldn’t know about his cocaine use, where as with me he can’t ever hide it anymore. But says he only thinks like that when he’s on a binge as when he’s come down and sober, he loves me more than anything and wouldn’t ever leave me.
Is this all normal of an addict?