Hi lillies, hope your ok? Sorry to hear your story, its upsetting you saying.. all you wanted was your dad, and its history repeating itself.
Im in the same situation as your bf.. except i hate the stuff and i am doing my best to quit. Ive lapsed twice this year.. but i get straight back on not having it the next day.
The come downs are awful on coke and send some people suicidal.
Personally you seem like you know what your talking about and you know your stuff, so the only advice i can give you..
Is fair enough hes your 1st love.. but are you really happy? Your still only young. Id have a good think what you want out of this and were you see your self in 5 10 years time.
Or tell him hes on hisast chance, he gets help or your leaving.. but thats just my opinion.
You can get coke in a village? Really?
Tbh its everywere, i know so many people that are doing it! Its horrible