I can understand fully all the emotions you are going through. Cocaine can ruin lives.
My ‘husband’ used to sniff the dreaded stuff staying out all hours and coming home drunk and high. The following day was wasted.
You made me smile about the food shopping. I hate food shopping but ‘husband’ always made it fun. In fact everything was fun before.
Now I feel anger like I’ve never known it. I could easily smash the house up. No word of a lie. I’m stressed, agitated and anxious all of the time. It has become a sad and lonely life.
I too hate seeing people enjoying their lives because we used to have a happy life. Now I resent ‘husband’ I thought I was cried out but over the last few days I’ve been wobbling. You are not alone, I know exactly how you are feeling.